Appointment

 

1 · the act or an instance of appointing. holds office by appointment ; 2 · a position or office to which a person is named. holds an appointment ...

 

Disappointment: (first used 1577...what did people do before this?)

 

1
: the act or an instance of disappointing : the state or emotion of being disappointed

 

Illusion:

1. a false idea or belief
2. a deceptive appearance or impression

 

Disillusionment:  

 

the loss or destruction of illusions or idealistic beliefs; the state of having lost such illusions or beliefs:

 

I realized after a terrible experience with a church years back, that disillusionment is an answer to prayer and very good.  It did hurt. But the Lord showed me that it was His answer to my prayer. You see, I knew something was sketchy about the situation I was in and I knew things weren't quite right. The process of discovery of the corruption and falsehood hurt.  But I had asked him for the truth. Then, my eyes were opened to it in all it's nastiness. Since I had invested many years in blindness (illusion) it was that much more emotional to find out things were not as they appeared. 

It is something to thank him for, because you have been set free from a deeply held illusion. So, disillusionment then, is being set free from illusion. I won't lie, it hurts, but it also frees you to uninvest in the false, and seek the true.

Disappointment seems to be purely emotional.  Something you thought was going to happen, didn't. You interpreted stimulus to equal a result. This interpretation must be faulty because it led to expectations that did not come to pass. We read our own personal interpretations all the time, according to our flesh, our experiences, our desires, but only our spirit, hearing from God's spirit and word is pure and untainted. 

Emotional healing takes care of disappointment. Tell him what you are feeling and ask him to take it from you. Going forward, strip your expectation down to the basic level.  Trump made an appointment to make an announcement today.  He will show up and do that. (Barring interference.)  Anything beyond that is the cherry on top. Let thankfulness rule your heart over all GOd has done. Praise him for every promise he has made and kept and will keep going forward. 

 

Saul had his anointing stripped from him, that soulish King that the people had begged for. Look what he inspired in the people when trouble came. Hiding. Doubt. Fear of giants. 

David was anointed by God as a boy.  Look what happens when this one delivers lunch.  ALso look at the long long span of time between GOd choosing him to be King, and it taking place in the natural. Remember how his own men were ready to kill him. Think you are better than that? They were off fighting and lost everything dear to them and wanted to kill him.  What did he do? He went straight to God with it all. Dared to put on the Priests ephod and hear from GOd right now what he wanted him to do.  

We know how the story turned out, and so we say, yeah yeah that was great. What about our story right now? We don't Have access to the prewritten script on this one. Only a handful do. We see pieces and bits.  We interpret them thru the lens of what we wan't out of it, and we want it NOW and oh woe is me I have been waiting for 2 years, or 10 years or 60 years.  I am so disappointed.  I have been there. Give those emotions to God and let him heal you and bring you in deeper to his heart. Get wisdom and revelation of his character, his inability to ever lie, his ways of setting intentions and watching over them to perform them. Pray. Encourage yourself in the Lord, then others.

Being freed from illusions is a process. It's not there to hurt you, it's there to show you the truth. And, the truth will set you free. Finding out something you thought was real is actually fake can be traumatizing, but it doesn't have to be. NOW faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen. Make sure your faith is in God, and if the Holy SPirit has you in a 'need-to-know' place where you aren't privy to knowledge about something, stay there.  If you insist on knowing in your own mind and flesh and wander out into the land of what other people think, and decide to listen to them and believe them when God wants you to trust HIM, there is always trouble. It's great what a prophet said, but God showed THEM that, not you. Keep at least some distance from incorporating that immediately into your belief system. Until you have a clear confirmation from the Lord that he wants you to believe that for yourself, it should not be an automatic processs. He doesn't always want you to know everything. Remember, there was a tree in the garden that he did not want partaken of by anyone but himself.

I had a humbling time with the Lord where he showed me that my hyper-vigilance was NOT discernment, but a distorted part of my personality, my flesh. I was so sad when he showed me this, but, also equipped with new truth.  I don't jump to conclusions now that I used to, I run it through the Holy Spirit stink detector now and wait and see. He showed me a weakness in my perception of things, and it alerted me to be more cautious about thinking I know something.  If all you are discerning is bad stuff about people, and you are never seeing where the Spirit is moving in good ways, you may have this issue as well. Discernment reveals where God is moving too, not just all the bad stuff the devil is up to. I was stuck in a negative loop. The enemy want to make you stuck this way, keep you in a stress loop. Harder to hear God's voice when your adrenalin panic and fear are running.


If you are angry, frustrated, disappointed, crest-fallen, disillusioned, follow the trigger with the HOly SPirit and let him show you everything in you that is fake. Every false belief. Every illusion. Maybe you are kicking against the goads.

We were promised victory, if we continue to stand and overcome. Victory, with buffeting. In the world you will have troubles, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world. But look at his life. He overcame the world. He was aslo hated, reviled, and gave up his life for love of his FAther and love of you. He did his part perfectly. Now we do ours. In a storm, you sift through the dead-weight and fling it overboard.  Got any dead things weighing you down? Stuff that seemed so important a couple years ago that are just dragging you down now? 

 Once a friend passed away and left us her car. We didn't need it at the time, didn't really like it, either. Hubby smashed up his car shorly after and needed it. Drove it for a couple years until he could afford a new one. Nobody liked this car (including my friend who had it first.) It was a disappointment to her.  After hubby got his new sweet car, this other one was put out to pasture.  We tried to find people who needed it and it was taking some time.  So it sat in the loser place, out by our pole barn, where we couln't see it, and got ignored for awhile. 

I woke up one night to what sounded like a gunshot, and smelled smoke. I looked out the window to see flame shooting out of the attached garage window and realized I was hearing car tires explode. By the next morning we had spent the night on the front lawn watching fireman try to put out a fire that wound up burning the entire house. As they left they gave me names and numbers to call and there was tons of important calls to make right away. Where do I set up my office, when all I have is a smouldering wet ruin?  The fire burned so hot that all of our cars were melted down to the wires and metal. Even cars parked in the driveway melted.

But the car nobody liked was still sitting faithfully by the barn, unscathed. In that one night, it had become the most important thing we owned. It was our only form of transportation and the only office to make the calls in. My slippers where in there, a notebook and pen, my horses tack, music cd's. I sat in there while the people disbursed from our front lawn and got started on the next phase.

I guess storms are pretty much destructive acts of nature, like a fire, in that everything changes in one night. All the old is gone. Clean up ensues. Things you relied on and thought you needed are now garbage.  You are standing there with nothing familiar or stable, just you, a car you thought you didn't want or need, and your family. You have no idea what to do next. You don't have money or your wallet everything is melted. You are helpless. The only way to do even a basic task or get a simple need met is have somebody help you. 

And, they do. Everything I treasured the most that came from my parents house after my Dad passed away a month before was waiting for me to go thru it in that garage. I had brought them to our house for safekeeping. Every family photo of my childhood, my parents childhood, super 8 movies, slide reels, family documents, Moms china, all that really mattered to me, gone. 

The fire inspector from the insurance company was not able to determine the cause of the fire, but he suspected mice and wires. The blaze had been so hot that the evidence couldn't really tell much. I had recently had electrical work done on my car, and that was the area of the garage that the fire seemed to start at. You want to figure it out at first, but then, you see you can't. It is just something that happened. It isn't your whole life. 

After this you have to tell your story over and over to strangers that you need help from. You get so tired of this story, and the looks, and words you hear. You realize that you have to stop living in this event. You have to create another narrative for yourself, and turn to God and ask him to tell your story to you. SHow you what HIS story for you is. 

We are all in this storm right now. But it is not our story.  God is writing our story. We aren't at the end yet. Let the story be that God led his people through the storm, and they trusted in Him and loved one another all the way through. They chose to give each other life boats, rather than saving themselves or their lives. They threw all the dead weight over board.  They got beauty from ashes. They lost things they thought they needed but didn't really need, and they gained thankfulness for things they didn't appreciate before. They learned how to turn to God and walk in the SPirit. They learned how to hope when everything looked like smouldering ruins. They saw that having each other was more valuable than having things. God works in mysterious ways His wonders to perform. 
  
Years later, I saw that Father didn't want me learning about my childhood from old photos. He knew they would traumatize me. His way thru my childhood was the only way. Need-to-know basis only.  I told him all of it was still in my mind somewhere, and he could show me whatever he wanted and keep what he knew I couln't handle.  When I am weak, He is strong.

The main thing of the storm for me, was a crisis of stewardship. Jesus gave us this earth, we are the stewards of it. What we do with that will determine our results.  The results we have now, are stark evidence of a lack of stewarding what God entrusted to us. Wolves in sheeps clothing took control, and a battle must be fought and won to feed his sheep again. At no point do we have the luxury of waivering on our principles or becoming discouraged. IF you are disillusioned, fol low Him to the truth. You are being set free.  He knows it all, He sees it all, He wants to write the story. He has a wonderful place for us in His story.  

It was an Asian guy at hubbies work who helped the most. Out of a thousand trite but well-meaning platitudes about the fire, His shone a light. He said the Asian culture reveres a house fire as good luck.  It is cleansing, and they look forward to all of the good things that will come next when old things have been removed.  Beauty from ashes. It's a promise from a God who cannot lie and has no shadow of turning.